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At night I crawl in to your big boy bed and listen to you breath. I press my face into your neck and I smell your little bones.
They smell like rain on a hot sidewalk.
I push my nose into your cheek and inhale your sleepy breath. That little boy smell is warm in my throat and I pull you into my lungs so deeply that I’m afraid to exhale because I don’t want to lose the feeling of loving someone this much…

 I’ve never felt so lonely in my whole life.

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  1. LW Says:
    May 28th, 2009 at 12:05 pm

    Good Luck and Happy Blogging.

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